I am currently sitting here with a question that needs answering.
What to do with the rest of my life? To paint you a drab picture, I am sitting here with an orange flannel and jeans not getting a day of teaching work and wondering what to do with the future. I am sitting here staring at a screen of job applications, a below par CV and just wondering what has been happening the past 5 years.
Now don’t get me wrong, I love teaching, I really do. I love the interaction with the children and seeing their smiling faces when they walk through that door. I love helping children understand that one piece of information that they have been struggling to comprehend. But to get out there and try and find a permanent teaching role. Well, it is bloody hard work. I also understand the amount of hard work each and every permanent teacher has put in to get where they are, I do not want to play that down at all.
I get drips of CRT (supply) teaching but at 26, I was hoping I would have this all figured out.
I look around at the people who are my same age that have settled jobs, making a solid income and not having to worry about the next pay cheque and if I can pay my rent or bills for the next month.
Now, people are going to say “Oh woe is me, you have travelled around the world accrued teaching experience from another country and have been to places people only dream of seeing.” This is all true and I cannot deny that I have been extremely lucky to have a supportive family who have encouraged my travelling and adventures.
Please don’t mistake this for a whinge or cry over my life, because I have had an amazing time. This is just a mere reflection on what to do next. I have major anxiety over the future. Will I be able to own a house? Will I be able to support a family? Will I be able to live comfortably into retirement? All things that I shouldn’t worry about in my mid 20’s, but I really do.
Now I find myself at a road block in teaching, I just need to find that sledgehammer to smash my way through that block. Do I go back and try to attain some more teaching qualifications to widen my experience? Do I pack teaching in entirely and try something new? Do I become some sort of pirate and live off the treasures of the sea. Who knows?
This is just a thought piece because I have a lot on my mind and can’t vent to anyone in my general area at the moment. This wasn’t written for anyone but myself, but if you have gotten this far thanks for indulging my anxiety and reading on.
This isn’t my greatest writing piece, I am hoping to jump back on this and get as many things posted as possible.
The Rainbow Road 